Golden Girls Lakeside

Some of us we met because our mom brought a 6 month old Heather along to meet a 3 day old Laura.  Other relationships formed when we were in Brownies together or because we had playdates including our
brothers.  We went to preschool-12th grade, summer camps, as well as church.  Our moms drove carpool, taught the others piano, was our scout leader, was the cool mom for sleepovers. 

I'm not even sure where the name "Golden Girls" evolved, other than the TV show's characters fit our teenage selves imagined Senior versions. Bets on who I emulated? Did you say Dorothy in purple 80s stirrup pants, well you would be correct.  

From Senior cut day Hwy 11 bridge jumping (and stupidity) into Lake Jocassee

To 18th birthday surprise celebrations at the "Jockey Lot."  Don't ask, it's a SC thing.

We each went our own ways to colleges in different states.  We went to graduate schools, got married, had kids, became thirtysomething adults but kept up first in cards/letters or through our parents, then email, now Facebook and texting.    

How else to spend a sultry 105 degree day then at Melissa's lake home chating, eating, boating on Lake Norman, hanging out with our kids and spouses.

Big thanks to Bill for helping me keeps tabs on the boys. Ian required one adult at all times on him like a hawk.  I really liked this pictures of us, just before we braved the raft to be drug behind the boat with Ben. Ian pretended to drive the boat. He was obsessed with Todd's boat.

Just like last year, mom wiped out again on the raft.

Thanks Potter, Linker, and Worthy families for spending the day with us catching up just where we left off.
 

Ben's 6th Birthday Party

Ben's birthday fell on a Saturday this year.  When asked what type of party he wanted he immediately said, "giant waterslide party with waterguns."  Think he may have been thinking about this for a while?

When I found out that my school graduation would fall on the same day we decided to forge ahead and plan what would likely be an insane day.

And it was.  We allowed Ben to invite his kindergarten class + 5 additional outside school friends.  Add in our neighbors and we had close to 35 invited kids.  Yes, I am crazy but when you are this age, birthdays are EVERYTHING.  Final kid count was 24 including almost every boy in his class.

I asked my friend Eileen of Sugar Mama Cakes to create an Angry Birds themed cake.  When she dropped off the cake Friday night, Ben immediately asked if we could start the party immediately.  Add in 70+ grilled hot dogs, a giant watermelon and blueberry salad, and a tub of bags of Sunchips and we were ready to party.

We had hosted a waterslide birthday party before.  Remember this photo of a 3 year old Ben?

The party was crazy fun.  I would say Ben had a good time.

As well as my fearless 2 year old Ian.

Say did mom go down?

Even Mom and Dad got a little crazy (with the frosting)

Later that day I looked down at my feet at graduation to see mud still on my toes and laughed out loud at what was a tiring but awesome way to celebrate Ben's birthday.

I haven't even been brave enough to ask what he's thinking for his 7th birthday, which I'm sure he's already planning.

End of kindergarten

The end of the month is almost here and I realized I never posted two major June events, end of kindergarten and Ben's 6th birthday.

All of the kindergarten classes participated in the annual letter parade.  Ben was appropriately assigned V so out came the iron on transfers of V words including the Scooby Doo mystery machine van.  After the parade the room moms had prepared a 20 minute slide show in which Ben was running full speed in at least  3 pictures.  Go figure.

Teachers hosted breakfast and a gallery of students' best work. Yes it was a dog and pony show, but I appreciated the gesture.  I've written several times this year about how much we appreciated the teachers help and support.  At kindergarten trial day back in August I slipped two cards into Ben's backpack, each with a Bojangles gift card and a note that said, "please buy breakfast on me, thanks in advance for being Ben's first public school teacher."

Maybe I was subliminally prepping them for Ben as one of their more difficult students, maybe as a classroom teacher myself I just wanted to thank them for the time and effort they would put into my child.  Ben spent more awake hours in their presence than ours and I valued their judgement and help as we moved through the many difficulties and successes.

By the end of year I feel like we journeyed a million miles.  While we are very much on a continued quest for the right medication and behavior plan, I have his teachers to thank for helping us throughout the year identify specific problems.

Needless to say I was a hot mess watching Ben celebrate the end of year and saying goodbye to his teachers.  I was sobbing to the point I had to walk out and instead of thanking each teacher in person I resorted to the fine art of the thank you note.

Before the end of the year we asked for a 1st grade placement, help with a summer tutor, and suggestions on how to make the most academically over the summer.  His teacher offered to meet me on one of the workdays after the school year was over.  She asked Mrs. D, our tutor, to also come to help ease Ben's transition to a new teacher.  Maybe I should have brought each a giant Bonjangles sweet tea?

Instead I hugged his teacher and thanked her.  Most likely in a 12 year span of public school teachers Ben will not mesh with some of the teachers who will teach him.  I'm sure with a diagnosis attached to his file I'm going to have to fight harder against misconception.  I'm the first to tell you that burn out is pervasive in this career, even at good schools with a solid administration. Even really great teachers have off years. Being on the inside of this districts helps, but it also colors how I see my role as a parent.  Better advocacy for my own kid as well as those I teach has been a positive out of the difficulty of this year.

We were very lucky this year not to be written off as a problem kid with overbearing parents.  Starting school within days of my mom's death, followed by a return to full time work, as well as two major surgeries, you can say I needed someone on our side.

Thank you Mrs. S and Mrs. R.  I hope you know how much we appreciate you.

Wordless Wednesday

Feelin' the need to bump Ghostbusters from our next 80s movie date night.

Florida road trip recap by the numbers

Before I left someone asked me if I was either suicidal or just crazy for driving alone to Florida with the V-boys. Neither. Rather why break a 6 year record for Florida summer roadtrips to see Bill's family?

I will admit that hauling a sleeping 6 week old Ben was easier than a 6 year old in the throws of massive meltdown in the middle of traffic. Like all trips not everything went as planned, but for the most part it was a good trip. In fact I would chalk it up to one of our best.

Our trip by the numbers:

Number of miles mommy driven- Just over 1,400
Average number of hours in car on travel days- 11
Hours in car before the DVD player broke- 2
Days on the road-9
Hours spent front-seat disciplining including the phrase: "Stop licking your brother"- 3
Sand removed from car- 3 1/3 cups
Packed car ratio: 10% necessities to 90% toys
Bottle of sunscreen used- almost 2
Number of sunburned Vinson folk- None!
Legos fallen into the abyss between seats- at least a full set
1st Trips to a water park- 1 (Ben who fearlessly road everything in his height range)
Conversations about Dinosaurs vs Superheroes- Most of the drive through Atlanta
Books read by Heather- 3, make that almost 4 including the 30 hour 11-22-63
Naps in pool by Heather- 1, naps in general 3
Days with unwashed hair- 3
Meltdowns- 2 major by Ben, 1 by mom, daily by a toddler Ian
Super cool beach cartwheel and handstand contest- (Ben vs Mom)- 1
Father's Day cookout family count- 13 Evans/Vinsons
Child-free afternoons- 2
lbs of boiled shrimp eaten seaside- 1 1/2
Days gloriously unplugged- 9

Florida 2012 Road Trip Mantra- Not for the weak and most definitely survival of the fittest Vinson. At times an ultimate test of patience, but worth every single minute for this piece of awesome.

Camp Mommy!

Camp mommy is officially up and running as of this morning with coordinated carpool drop offs.  I gave myself a budget and worked it like a boss to maximize area 1/2 day camps paired with free or low cost summer fun for the next 2 months. I hope to get in pool time each day with one or both kids in addition to try to get some of the items marked off my summer chore to do list.

I created a giant spreadsheet to track where the kids and I will be each week of the summer.  Of course the teacher in me just HAD to laminate it on some cute paper before posting on the fridge.

This week Ben is music and movement class and Ian is in Wee Camp at the Y.  I promised the boys we would take several summer field trips to which Ben asked if we could make t-shirts similar to what his class wore throughout the school year.

Alas what became when the boys picked iron-on transfers (Ben-Dino and Ian-Robots), mom added fabric markers and created "V-Boys Summer 2012 World Tour" t-shirt backs to detail our top 10 from the big summer fun list.
 

Number of total stranger comments the day we worn them in Florida?  3

We had an amazing trip to Florida.  In a last minute change of plans I left a couple of days early to take advantage of extra time with my brother.  I stayed completely unplugged minus a few pictures posted during the week.  When is the last time I traded 4 books and a jewelry project to finish over taking a laptop on vacation for work?

All hopes to write a longer recap post but I'll leave you with this sign I found (and couldn't resist buying.)

Perfect.

Stand and Deliver or Summer School?

Hello end of another school year.  2011-12 was good year, despite circumstances that had a high suck potential including: losing my classroom to traveling on a cart, inheriting my maternity leave’s sub schedule of all freshmen, two surgeries,  and being back full time after a year away working from home. When I wrote back in August that I was going back full time I had moments thinking the suck potential was high. Guess what, in the end it didn’t.

Surprisingly it was one of the best years of my 12 years to date.  Thinking I have 18 more until full retirement is a little depressing.  But how amazing is it that since student teaching 2, 500 students have passed through my classes.   Most likely I was yet another teacher for yet another required class to graduate.   Maybe the day I taught the circular flow model of economics using a diaper stuck to the board that some student will remember.  Or that I bribed students with food if they stayed for review.

I mentioned to my assistant principal this morning when he thanked me for coming back that I wanted to thank him for helping support teachers in the classroom.  School-wide policies that have been tinkered with each and every year finally felt like they are working.  When you help start something from the ground up you become accustomed to continual change.  It feels amazingly cathartic to see something you have poured much energy into finally working.

   

This year I focused more than I ever have on my students repeating as I had a glut of 2 and 3^rd time re –peters among the classes.  Believe me I wrote up discipline referrals for more ridiculous stuff than ever before.  Some days it felt like a crazy train from the 15 and under crew from 7-4pm and then more crazy from my own under 6 crew from 5-8pm. I have an unbelievable threshold for noise as well as crazy.

Result all but 4 of my nearly 200 students passed.  I say this not for a pat on the back but because in this profession the only real satisfaction is seeing someone who really struggled finally make it.   

Teachers have the power to push you to places you didn’t think you could go, but also have the power to tear you down, making you feel small and stupid.  Every student is someone’s kid with a vested interest in seeing them graduate.

If ever there is a profession where you need to check your own issues at the door it is teaching.  Bring a bad morning with you to school, guaranteed students will pick up your mood and eat you alive.  I live by the mantra to try to be somewhere between hard-ass and soft place to fall.

I think I need to start the It Gets Better High School campaign.  For so many of us high school had points or even years that we would rather forget. Even through the clothes have gotten skimpier and kids more daring to do stuff at an earlier age, the belief that your entire life is wrapped up in who you know, who doesn’t like you, how you look is still very much a daily reality.

Most days I like what I do for 1/3 of the day, but I won’t lie, having 8 whole weeks of time off is sweet.  I’m happy to shed the 5:15 am wake up call for day camp drop off, t-ball practices, fetching overconfident toddlers out of the pool.  I’m ready for my only students to be Ben and Ian.

School’s out for summer.  School’s out forever (or just August 17^th).

6

My beautiful blue-eyed boy, today you are six.   Today you move another year away from the dependency of infanthood, the obstinance of toddlerhood, the independence of a preschooler.   I look at your freckled face and see more of the man you are becoming with each passing day.
 

In this last year around the sun you grew in so many ways.  Physically you are strong and lean. You are happy to go shirtless for any and all reasons.  You have a giving spirit and are protective of your little brother. 

Watching the relationship between you and Ian grow is sweet goodness. Finally at age two he is willing to try anything if you do first.  Our house is loud, chaotic, and filled with the sounds of playing and fighting.  Love grows at our home, just at an ear-deafening decibel.

You often ask about what is a good friend?  Among the many conversations we’ve had in our 10 minutes alone before daycare pickup we’ve talked about how being kind, doing for others, listening more than we talk.  I hope that these many car conversations are times you will recall later that were while average everyday afternoons, that I treasured the time between us.
   

During this past year you became fearless in the water, loving the giant waterslides at the pool.  You played t-ball, took swim lessons, tried martial arts, started going to church on a regular basis.  We’ve talked about God, about faith, about dying this past year.  For the first time ever I’ve felt a maturity to your questions, your thinking, and your desire to want to know more.

Talking to you about your Mema’s death taught me that you will process everything in your own way.  It saddens me when you talk about missing her knowing all the special events in your life she will never know.  My hope as your mom that I will live a long life and love the future children you will father. 

This year you started kindergarten at a new school with new friends.  So many days you met me with open arms and a hugged-filled, chattering play by play of your day.  Watching you make friends, laugh and joke makes me smile that socially you are maturing.
  

The tears I had for you at your end of year celebration were in part happiness to see your bright smile in so many pictures of your year.  But they were also because of how hard this year has been for your father and I as we made decisions that will impact the rest of your life.

You are our son, not a label or a diagnosis. I can’t ask you to understand the depth of our love or the extent to which we will go to give you every chance at a successful and healthy life until you make these decisions for your own children. 

My beautiful boy may the sun always shine on your face as you travel another year around the sun.  So much goodness lies ahead for you.  If all I ever do in my life is to be called mom then I have lived a good life. 

Happy 6th Birthday my sweet Ben! Love,  Mom and Dad

Come on over and sit a spell

This little blog that could is about to celebrate a five birthday this summer.  What started as a massive to-do list during the summer of 2007 with a then one year old Ben.

Flash forward to today as that one year old finishes kindergarten.  At end of the year letter parade and kindergarten celebration there was not a dry eye in the crowd, especially from this mom.

   

I cannot tell you how much I am excited I am for this summer.  Maybe it’s the not working thing, or the big family fun list, or that the summer ends with this amazing opportunity to serve the community of Michura, Kenya. 

Whatever it is 2012 is going down as best year ever.

Instead of making some ridiculously crazy to-do I’m going to pair it down to 8 things for the essentially 8 weeks I have off.  Remember the 2012 theme was about shooting for perfection but being content with any measurable and attained progress?

 

Summer 2012 goals: 

1.  Rid the house of all things baby.  Donate, sell, and pass on whatever, but it all    needs to go.
2.  Strip and repaint the front porch swings and rocking chairs
3.  Work with Ben on a daily basis in conjunction with his weekly tutor
4.  Organize boys artwork folders
5.  Bind this blog by year
6.  Final purge of all too big/ill fitting clothes to charity
7.  Move all freeze ahead recipes in rotation into electronic form My Recipe Box
8.  Make exercise a part of each day. Consider the NC Zoo 5k run Sept as a goal

And one technically not a to do, just a want to do.  From Joy’s Hope the idea to host a Pioneer Woman Pot Luck.  I’m thinking maybe a different spin and calling it a “slap yo mamma southern food fest.”

I’m throwing in making buttermilk fried chicken, mac and cheese, stewed squash and onions, string beans simmered with country ham, fried green tomatoes, chocolate chess pie, crusty cream cheese pound cake.

Cocktails must be these amazing sweet tea cocktails I made for Bunco from the June Southern Living issue. Will be posting the recipe this summer.  STOP ME NOW.  I’d even get out my great grandmother’s silver and the bazillion gallery trays I got at my Sip and See bridal shower to serve you. 


Want come to pick your porch and celebrate Summer 2012 at Casa Vinson?

Camping!

Bill took Ben camping over the weekend under some of the most amazing NC weather ever.  Serious porch-sitting weather has ensued on a nightly basis around our house.  . 

We are slowly trying to build up decent camping equipment as with two active kids, camping is a no brainer on the family activity list. 

So far Bill has checked out three different local camping areas since last fall and we have plans to camp with family friends later in the summer. 

This will be my first time sleeping in a tent since I was in Girl Scouts about a bazillion years ago and on some quest for badges. 

In addition to camping, they also went finishing since their campsite backed up to a part of the lake.  One of the things we have started doing is fishing at the pond in our neighborhood weekends.  It never fails that it is quiet and peaceful and a chance for Bill to have alone with Ben. 

Quiet and peaceful activities will be repeated. 

Summer 2012- Big Family Fun List!

Like in past years I’m rolling out our BIG SUMMER FUN LIST.  As Ian is year older more options have opened up for both boys.  With mom not working and 8 weeks ahead, Camp Mommy is taking applications.

***pictures from our kick off to summer weekend***

This summer the V-Boys hope to:

1.    Make a t-shirt for “field trip days”

2.    Create a new car playlist of silly songs

3.    Mystery trip/scavenger hunt trip

4.    Take the train to the Greensboro children’s museum

5.    Go camping

6.    See a Durham Bulls baseball game

7.    Catch a fish

8.    Attend day camp/Wee Camp

9.    Road trip to see Granmommy

10.  See an outside movie

11.  Make a 2012 stepping stone

12.  Take swim lessons

13.  Ride go-karts

14.  Participate in a bike parade

15.  Visit the NC Museum of Art Puppet Show

16.  Go to the zoo

17.  Get together with friends

18.  Family Vacation

19.  Take a weekly trip to the library for new books

20.  Catch lighting bugs

21.  Play T-ball

22.  Start a family cooking night

23.  Make homemade ice cream

24.  Visit Durham Science and Life Museum

25.  Ride on the New Hill train

26.  See a car race

27.  Wash the dog outside weekly

28.  Go to the farmers market

29.  Make an art project at the scrap exchange

30.  Go on a nature walk at Hemlock Bluffs

31.  Family puzzle or game night

32.  Have a picnic, ride the train and carousel at Pullen Park

33.  Stay in a lake house and ride in a boat

34.  Go to an outside music concert

35.  Volunteer at the animal shelter, NC Food Bank, and collect school supplies for Backpack Buddies
36. Lake Johnson spray park

What’s on your Summer Fun List?

*Superhero cape-wearing optional

Field Day!

Field Day!!!

Under a sunny and hot NC sky you could say Ben had a blast at his first school Field Day.

I told him that Brian and I used to play “field day” growing up, making obstacle courses in our backyard with the dining room chairs.  Take a wild guess what he wanted to do once home last night.

A huge thanks to master and commander (of the giant cage ball event) Bill Vinson.

Bill and I both were able to volunteer and catch all the unbridled joy of children days from summer break.

Happy June 1^st.  Happy start to Summer 2012. 

Picking up where we left off

Sometimes friends leave you better than they found you. 

I can definitely say this of the decade plus relationship our family has had with the Hunter family. 

I’ve written before how two novice teachers thrown into the deep end of the pool established a friendship that has spanned babies, moves, deaths, and many a teaching story. 

Over the holiday weekend I drove the boys down to stay at Laura’s mom’s beach house on Oak Island,NC.  Want to talk about a Mondo dream, design the blueprints for your own beach house to include an elevator.  

Between our 5 boys under the age of 6 was a LOUD but amazing time to catch up. 

One of the things I love about our friendship is we just pick up from the last text, Facebook comment, or someone driving through town.  

Big thanks to her husband Mike who proved he is a twin + 1 dad with the best. Within 30 mins of arriving we had hit the beach with kids in tow for an afternoon of boy craziness. 

Ben and Eli were fearless in the water and played for hours on end together.  Ben now wants Eli's prized possession, a giant plastic chain used for oh so many activities.  

Ben's confidence was at an all time high, as was behavior until a packing the car to leave meltdown of epic proportion. 

Try not to break out into Michael Jackson's "Who's Bad" at the perpetually shirtless Ben and Eli.
 

Toddler Twins Leo (as well as Max and Ian) oscillated between snacking, digging in the sand, and getting close but not into the water. Did I mention snacking? 

3 sand covered toddlers = 3 very happy boys.  Tell me those matching bodysuits with flames are not the bomb.  

This entire family has a positiveness and resilience that is contagious.  An hour conversation with Laura inspires me not to settle for complacency in my classroom, with my kids, or even with my marriage. 

Serious props to Laura for not only being her district teacher of the year but also K-12 Social Studies Teacher of the year for the ENTIRE State of NC in 2012.  In her role she will serve on the teacher advisory panel to our State General Assembly.  Is anyone embodies grassroots ability to mobilize, it’s Laura.   If anyone can bring attention to a current detrimental education Bill #795 before our state Senate, she can.    

Thank you Hunter family for sharing your home with us as well as your lives.  We are all better for knowing your amazing family. 

WIN WIN

Since I had the day off to deal with several appointments I took the opportunity to volunteer with Ben’s class.  Bill and I have been very fortunate that despite both having full time jobs once a month one of us has been able to volunteer and have lunch with Ben. 

We are almost a full week into the first medication trial.  Yesterday I was able to observe first hand how much better his concentration was in literacy centers. Instead of us normally having to finish homework once home during the 5-7 pm dinner/bath shuffle he finished.  He actually even finished EARLY and had free choice centers. 

Granted this is the first medication and because this version is time released when he crashes, he does hard with uncharacteristic sobbing and ramped up arguing.  I’ve been solo parenting most nights due to Bill’s work so needless to say I’ve been seriously tired.  Ben is still having noncompliance issues with the first hour of the day being argumentative with the teachers in specials (art, PE, music.)

When we meet back with his pediatrician we want to address if extended release versus multiple day dosing would address these issues.  Side effects have been a mixed bag and long term we will work to accommodate.

As I was about to leave yesterday his teacher pulled me back to her desk and said that everything from the contract at school, the task list at home, and now adding the mediation has helped beyond what she could have imagined so quickly.   

I regret that Ben’s kindergarten year and start to his time in school has been so hard for him. It breaks my heart to see how much he has tried and failed over and over this year.  Part of me wishes we had not taken until spring to start a med trial. 

On the flip side I’m also glad that we worked through the process because we are not medicating in a vacuum.  The in and out of school behavior strategies are a solid base to carry into summer and into a new 1^st grade this fall. 

While it’s been difficult for us and his teacher to manage and try new methods and strategies, it’s been most difficult for Ben.  For the first time consistently this year he feels good about himself and his choices.    

This is a WIN WIN situation, especially as Summer Camp Mommy is about to start.  I’m taking away that this entire year has been a process to unpack with Bill and I in agreement over how to proceed.  

I’m driving the boys over the holiday weekend to see friends at the beach.  I’ve already warned our host that we are in the middle of a med trial.  She quickly reminded me that she is contributing twin toddlers and that together we will be 2 moms and 5 boys under the age of 6.

 All bets are off for a LOUD weekend. 

Happy holiday weekend all. 

 

Driving by

A quick check in given it's been a week and I've been MIA to returning emails, voicemails, basically anything requiring communication outside my immediate family. 

I'm still here, just been buried under a lot of end of year school work and ongoing issues at home.  No issues of the horrible bad sort, just of the time-consuming, emotionally draining type. 

Last week wrapped up of 8 sessions of family therapy and started the first medication trial with Ben after a lengthy pediatrician visit.  The jury is still out after only a few days on med 1. We go back after a full week to consider another strength or option. Much of the last couple of months feels like one step forward and two back as we try to figure out the pieces to the puzzle.

I don't regret a minute that we are doing this now and not banging our heads for another school year.  The positive is that Ben is very proud of his good decisions and is quick to point out when we catch him being good.  I'll also add that in the most bizarre of ways working through some hard parenting has helped Bill and I partner together in other areas. 

Back later this week, maybe.  Keeping us in clean underwear is tops as priority, so is wrapping up my school year and helping Ben end his in a positive place.   

Thanks for continued good thoughts that we are working towards a measurable goal for our family. 

Mother's Day (Full) Filled

I have been preparing for upcoming mother's day as it would be the first without my mom. I didn't want sadness or regret to eat away at the weekend so I started thinking about a way I could honor her as well as set an example for my boys.

It was happenstance that a friend told me about a pay it forward event with her kids organized by her church. Perfect timing. Over the week leading up to mother's day weekend I planned several family events.

Event 1: My college friend Michelle celebrates her daughter's adoption each year by sending a large package of toiletries every mother's day. I asked if the V boys could help put together a donation of toothbrushes, toothpaste, and kid band aids. Ben was overly concerned the kids wouldn't understand how to use a toothbrush, so he included directions.

Event 2: Our local SPCA hosts a Pet Pals club that allows elementary students to volunteer and learn more about taking care of animals. We took an donation of paper towels, hand sanitizer and enjoyed playing with kittens and puppies before leaving.

Event 3: Volunteering with the NC Food Bank. We bagged cucumbers and then MORE cucumbers for local agencies. We were excited to find out that Kid's Saturday is every month, thus making our big summer list.

Event 4: Sunday we celebrated at a local park feeding ducks, playing on the playground, eating ice cream and taking out a paddle boat. We paid it forward for another family to enjoy the boats before we left.

Over the week Ben and I talked about doing for others in the context of loving our friends/family. We talked about how doing nice things for people, even if we don't know them personally, is a way to show our love for them. We talked about ways we can make volunteering our time a part of family activities.

Among the gifts included a bouquet of flowers from the just blooming hydrandras in our yard, a secret package containing a heart and message beside my bed from Ben, a new frog aptly named Mr. T for our pond, and a message that a donation in my mom's name had been given by my MIL to the American Diabetes Association.

I was speechless and my heart was full. Even on this bittersweet day I was surrounded by love.

Bring the Funny

Last night I had the chance to get my love on of This American Life.

Kudos to an amazing show that featured some of my favorite contributors as well as some new faces.

One of the things I LOVE about TAL is that you truly never know where the theme will take you. You can just expect that the stories will amaze you, inspire you, and make you want to examine your own mundane life.

While I loved Mike Birbigulia's parody of Fresh Air and David Sedaris never disappoints, my favorite performances were two new stories.

An AMAZING story of street photographer Vivian Meier. I think I could have just heard her story and looked at her pictures for the rest of the evening.

I HOPE that TAL will post some examples of her work.

Then there was this piece of funny from Tig Notaro. Seriously it will make every bit of your Friday better.

Like the sun on my face

***I'm been sitting on this post for about a month and today feel like releasing it to the universe***

As we head into Mother's Day weekend with the first of four events rolling out this afternoon with the boys. I am very excited how we are spending the upcoming holiday weekend. More to come, but today will involve a giant box of toothbrushes.


From mid April 2012:

Someone stopped me Monday back at work and commented on what I was wearing. They went on to say I looked happier than they ever remembered. I am.

I'm happy not just for being comfortable in a new body for also for what just feels like a lightness beyond weight removed.

I thanked them and didn't elaborate that yes while a MAJOR piece of this happiness is physical it is also so much more.

I think part of it is wrapped up with setting boundaries with my time/work/sleep and then not negotiating. It's recognizing when negativity is becoming a default or stopping a trigger before is envelops me. In all honestly not being torn about making the drive to SC as caretaker is a part. Maybe getting starting the week in a meaning place where come mopping the floors I find myself thinking about something that stuck.

What this co worker really doesn't know is at 37 I feel better in almost every way than I can remember. As much as this year has had difficulty, I feel like I am walking in sunlight more days than I can remember.

I saw this piece on 60 minutes recently. Out of destitution has been created beauty. The last 3 minutes or are joy inducing to see and hear beautiful music being played under the most dire of circumstances.

Everything about this segment is hopeful, beautiful, joyful.

Make that Joy.Full.

I'll answer that I feel the same.

I think we're going to need a bigger cake

Teacher appreciation week for both boys is here.

I owe Ben’s teachers a group discount on a cruise for their help and support this year. From his classroom teachers to the after school teachers, they have earned combat pay.

So outside of buying a classroom set of mini white boards off his teacher’s wish list I got them STAWBERRIES!!!!

For both Ben and Ian’s teachers I picked up a bazillion strawberries at the big farmers market. I made my great grandmother’s crusty cream cheese poundcake and paired a handwritten note (or scribble in Ian’s case) to say thank you.